The journey of thoughts

Attention

2008-08-09T00:47:00.001+08:00

Locate me at:
http://balancewithinthesenses.wordpress.com/

2008-08-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

Caught the movie Money not enough II.

Some thoughts are triggered.

In the movie, there is this mother that loved her 3 sons like nothing else in the world matters, including her life. In the movie, she was traveling around the 3 sons' house to stay each week. They were supposed to take turns to look after her. She was also treated not well by her sons; she slept in the kitchen, outside the toilet and lastly in the toilet. Lastly, she was sent to old folks' home by her sons, where she collapsed when she couldn't take the fact that she was abandoned.

It actually shows how the mother is being kicked around like a unwanted ball, or worst, rubbish. She gave her every penny to her 3 sons when they were in trouble and to feel bad that she couldn't help more. Yet, the 3 sons calculated every penny of theirs' on the expenses of taking care of her.

She never grumbled at all.

At last she gave up her life in order to save her granddaughter.

I have grandparents that I love, so much. I have parents that I love, alot. I am glad that I do not have any big regrets that I failed as a daughter and granddaughter. But, it also makes me realise that there is still more that I can be better and improve.

For my readers, please cherish whoever you love and whoever love you.

You are the poorest not when you are broke, but you are the poorest when you are broke and have no one that love you by your self.

2008-06-25T20:15:00.002+08:00

Have you ever felt the feeling of realizing the truth and yet felt saddened by it? While I experienced it today when I received a shocking or rather disappointing comment that was made on me.

The hard thing is it was made by what I thought was my friend. In a friendship, disagreements and argurements are common. This is part of what will make the friendship blossoms. It is the readily forgive and forgets that makes 2 people friends. Yet, this is what made me disappointed and am ready to give this friendship up too.

What I can last say is I finally saw the other side and the other side of what is it really like.

2008-06-17T21:30:00.002+08:00

Have you ever been tired that when you board the bus you just feel like sleeping straight away yet you would think how nice it is to have a shoulder to lie on?

Have you ever been tired out from stress that you also feel like having a shoulder to lie on?

Suddenly I wondered, is there a shoulder out there for me to lie on when I need one. Most people will feel that a boyfriend or girlfriend will do the job. But honestly at this age how many couples can last? Furthermore some even broke up and cant even face each other.

There, a shoulder lost.

It shouldn't be the partner of one doing the job. This job is for life and with no boundaries. It can be needed anywhere and anytime. How can someone live without any shoulders in their lives? Sometimes the number of shoulders you have simply just indicate how blessed you are and how have you led your life and even do you actually have a life?

How many shoulders do I have?

2008-06-09T13:18:00.006+08:00

It's been long since the last update.

Lots happened. Or at least one major thing happened. I've got my driving license on 31st may.

It's like a dream come true. =) Thinking back, how long has it been for me to achieve one of my dreams since my secondary school days. I believe everyone can understand and have felt the feeling of triumph. For my friends out there taking their tp soon, my advise is: It's (car) just a machine, u shouldn't fear, u just have to control it!

On that same day, 31st May, I've also celebrated my dear's birthday. Sorry for the late update. But here are the pics, enjoy!

The fellow.

The driver! haha.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!The only nice and rare smile u can see from the fellow face when he's torturing ppl!
The fellow just cant take a normal shot. -.-
It all ended when I reach home at like 2am. Love that night to bits. =)

2008-05-25T00:59:00.002+08:00

So much have happen.

So much thoughts that ran wild.

Yet we have came to a conclusion just like that.

Perhaps we weren't really ready for it.

Or is it a problem of timing.

The stage is set.

We just have to find what is lost back and that is if we will ever be ready.

P.S. I enjoyed myself during these period. Thanks for everything. I wish you well.

2008-05-22T14:11:00.000+08:00

Things my mother taught me (http://bertc.com/mother_taught_me.htm)

1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE."If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning."

2. My mother taught me RELIGION."You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL."If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

4. My mother taught me LOGIC."Because I said so, that's why."

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.'If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT."Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

7. My mother taught me IRONY."Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS."Shut your mouth and eat your supper."

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM."Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!"

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA."You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER."This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."

12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY."If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!"

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE."I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOUR MODIFICATION."Stop acting like your father!"

15. My mother taught me about ENVY."There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

16. My mother ! taught me about ANTICIPATION."Just wait until we get home."

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING."You are going to get it when you get home!"

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE."If you don't stop crossing your eyes, They are going to freeze that way."

19. My mother taught me ESP."Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"

20. My mother taught me HUMOUR."When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT."If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."

22. My mother taught me GENETICS."You're just like your father."

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS."Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?"

24. My mother taught me WISDOM."When you get to be my age, you'll understand."

25. And my favourite: my mother taught me about JUSTICE."One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"

2008-05-08T13:18:00.003+08:00

Often I wondered. What is life seriously?

People telling me, life is u living to the max, life is going through sickness, feelings and death.

But, is life really that simple now? Like life is living to the max. It's saying that you would do the best you can. Roughly translated, you have to find something to do. But if to find things to do, we are to do thing to best. Humans will tend to compare. Comparing leads to competition. Sometimes this is what made the world goes wrong. Life lost, unrest in countries, countries politically unstable and etc.

Have people really think about what is afterlife like?

I've thought about it after passing by a shop that sells incense paper and stuff and found my theory interesting. It's painted beautifully and I realized that I could look forward to MY afterlife.

What made me thought bout this is because when I passed by the shop, I actually saw this LV bag. I was fascinated and so I looked around and saw Gucci bag. Gosh! It is definitely getting competitive in our afterlife too. But the reassuring fact is that you will not be working like cows like what we are doing right now. Just imagine, wealth falling from the sky. It's almost like dream come true for lots of people. Well, it's mine too :)

2008-04-23T20:31:00.002+08:00

Had a weekend out with my thai cousin. We toured from bugis to esplande, from esplande to the Singapore flyers, from singapore flyers to marina square, from marina square to chinatown.

Yes for those who dont know I have 2 thai cousins. But they dun look thai though.

My cousin has this professional camera. Those black black big big one. Dam cool. Dam fun.

And and i became my cousin's model. I know.. LOL.

She's the one!
I took this myself using the CAMERA. Not bad at all. Might be gifted. Haha.

2008-04-07T20:42:00.001+08:00

School reopened today.

Rjs

Quizs

Evaluations

Oh my god.

2008-03-13T22:13:00.005+08:00

The singapore mini tour! I know it sounds noob. Singaporean going for singapore tour. Hell didnt I care cause it's fun! Had been wanting to blog this, so TADA!

Start off: The Duck tour!

Do you know this transportation that can travel in sea/land is built by the british in 1942 (world war 2)

Rare shots that you can take! cause the brigde is only to half of the merlion.

The next stop: Singapore flyers
Lunch @ The singapore flyers:

040308

2008-03-05T22:17:00.002+08:00

The last teenage year. Many realizations, yet finally enlightened.

Thanks guys! I love all of you ;)

2008-03-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sightings at the Kallang riverside:
Some idiot blocking the history story:

The must try fondue at golden mile @ 2nd storey:

2008-02-27T10:28:00.001+08:00

Got this from zac's blog. Just wana say tt it's coming! 9th of march! Here i come!!!

2008-02-17T17:15:00.007+08:00

V. day:

Movie reviews:

"Ah Long Pte Ltd" is a light-hearted black comedy about the triad world and the money-lending business. Following the retirement of her triad leader (Richard Low), a young lady, Li Hua (Fann Wong), tries to restructure her money-lending triad into a professional and 'loving' triad that stands against the use of violence. She also suffers a nagging mother and gets involved in a romance with Mr Fang (Mark Lee), an effeminate dance instructor cum image stylist.

Guys, this is the must watch movie! Plot might not be that good. But it's hell funny!

Holly Kennedy is a grieving young widow who discovers that her late husband, a passionate, funny and impetuous Irishman, has left her a list of tasks revealed in 10 messages, delivered anonymously, intended to ease her grief. With only words as her guide, she embarks on a journey of rediscovery, exploring again the meaning of friendship and marriage but most of all, how strong love can transform the finality of death into a new beginning for life.

This movie really protrays the grief, sadness and sweetness that no people can show it better. The grief of a widower, the sadness of losing a loved one and how sweet it is to be loved. Although i strongly recommended the book than the movie.

A couple of things changed in the movie plot from the original story in the book:

Holly had an additional father and 2 brothers in the book.

Daniel is the one who owns the club, not working for Holly's mum and got back together with his ex-girlfriend.

The DJ that Denise married do not own a club.

There was no william.

She did not bring her mum to ireland at the end and she did not visit her in laws in ireland.

The letters came in a big package send to Holly's parents home at one shot, not like in the movie.

She did not become a shoe designer instead she work at a magazine firm.

CNY 08'

2008-02-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

The year of rat.

How fast time actually flies? It's another new cycle in the 12 zodiac signs again.

Well, the eve of cny, reunion dinner had steamboat, sharkfin and yi pin wo (seafood claypot). It ended with the most fun thing. Yusheng!

Now do u understand how fun is it?

The first day of cny: visitations!

Lastest hairdo of the year!

Shopping companion.

2008-01-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

That's me! Well, shopped at Orchard with the James (kor kor). Fruitful trip! A dress and a top. But cant win him still.

Love the day. James remember our chinatown food hunting trip ;)

Mango pudding at far east:
Note: not very nice!

NELLY FURTADO LYRICS"All Good Things (Come To An End)"

2008-01-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

Honestly what will become of medon't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping andthe rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

Interesting.

2008-01-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

What Ellen Lim Shi Wei Means

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Who knew.

2008-01-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Too much to say.
Too much to list.
Too much to bare.
But who knew.

It's locked in my head.
Until the magic broke it free.
I wish I can forget,
I wish I can remember.
But who knew.

The yet again departure.

2008-01-11T13:11:00.000+08:00

Selfish thoughts,
flashing by.
Countless rush of feelings,
racing to the end point.
Yet again another departure,
how is it a reunion?

Reunion,
happy ever after,
when does it happen?
I guessed never.

Little conclusions,
yet not finalized.
Little thoughts,
yet vanquished.
Little feelings,
yet ignored.

Missing person,
never left in our hearts.
Missing the feeling,
never wanted it to happen.
Missing family,
when will it end?

The start.

2008-01-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

Year 2008 highlight are the fireworks at the countdown. Went down to marina for the 8 mins of '08 fame. It was fantastic:

But however marvellous the programme is, I wouldnt have enjoyed it without my darlings. Ate 2 meals that night = 2 dinner. Waited cab from 1.30am to 3am! Phew. Next countdown no car, no go.

And of course providing the scandal of the month (a gossip a day keeps the doctor away!=D):

Interesting.

2007-12-28T12:04:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.
You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

Christmas.

2007-12-26T22:51:00.000+08:00

Had a lovely day with my dearest(s). Slacked at Mount Faber, lovely ambiance and perfect weather with stars to accompany us.

Last but not least, thanks for all the presents, thoughts and messages that had been given to me.

Never felt so loved.

Retriving childhood.

2007-12-20T12:05:00.000+08:00

My mum was spring cleaning yesterday and found photos of me when I was a toddler! Gonna share only a portion with you guys. But i really found these photos funny!

Introducing the big durain once a upon a time:

Standing at 9 months!:

Do not open!

The lastest fashion (strippy pants and what's up cap):
The bitting fever:

Watcha looking at!

I swore this is the barbie fashion that time!:

Vroom! Vroom!:

Pole dancing! :O

Picture shows a thousand words!

2007-12-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Nothing to do.

2007-12-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

Lets101 -

updates.

2007-12-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

Random thoughts:

How much can life fool you, trick you, torture you? Or even sweeten you?

I've always believe in everything happens for a reason and live your live like you die tml and dream as if you live forever. When your mood takes a dip, take up your spirit because there's no repeat in life. Why let your mood take control to waste your life like this when we should be controlling what we want to feel to live to the max.

Recent happenings:

T3 visit.

World aids day walk @orchard.

The Birthday Ritual.

2007-11-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

The air was filling with enthusiasm from the start of the day.

The moment started when HE first stepped into E44J. Outnumbered and tackled:

The tying process starts:

Up onto the (Ritual) Table:

And MORE tying:

Firmly tied down:

Out to from E44J classroom to the common corrider outside the class:
(Opps! Slip!)

Out at the common corrider, forced to sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY song to himself:

Hopping around:
Round 2 - The Carpark water treatment:
And that is the desired results of the holy oh mighty BIRTHDAY RITUAL!:HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBASTIAN!

Obsession.

2007-10-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

Most peeps have their obsessions. Generally, shoes, clothes, music, bags, accessories and more. I have this obsession that is driving me nuts cause it ain't a cheap one:

WATCHES

This is my latest one:

By: Nike timing

Pricing: $269

Isn't it just cool? I don't care. It is or at least to me.

And a big "THANK YOU" to sebastain. -.-:

Can u be anymore kinder garden? Hee. =D

Can it be raining watches?

A joke.

2007-10-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

I was watching TV whilst having my dinner a few days ago at my gram's place and here's what happen:

TV: The advertisement on the mocca website was playing with the muscular man "selling" the house.

My cute cute grams said to me: "That poor guy. So long already, house haven been sold."

Ok. I'm bad, I laughed my ass off. Oh grams, I love u..

Random.

2007-10-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

1. I'm very glad and proud to say that, I have done my PP!
2. I'm also very glad and proud to say that, I have completed my CE points! (55 points to be exact, ha!)
3. I have made peace with myself regarding life.
4. Another departure in my life that I am forced to come to terms with again...

Well, that's life isn't it?

Life.

2007-10-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

Back to school for the 3rd week today. Feeling Monday blues with additional black into blue - dark blue. Lessons are fine but no motivation to do it anyway. Still searching for my push button.

What is real life? Really emotional is what I can refer to my feelings as to now. Events struck me down like meteor coming down from the sky. I need a break. I need to breathe. Who truely understands when my most trusted one is not sure of me too. It's like standing on a ground of loose sand. Unsure of my footing now. Unsure of what's not just another fantasy.

Tired yet cant sleep,
Trusted yet now vanish into thin air,
Hope just another denial decieving myself,
Thoughts being vanquished stabbing one to bleed never ending.

Friend

2007-09-25T13:04:00.000+08:00

Definition of friend:

–noun
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.
3. a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?
4. member of the same nation, party, etc.

From the definition, a friend is:
1. your loved one.
2. your 3rd hand.
3. your trusted one.
4. just one of the same among the many.

Many of us thinks that friends are friends. Nothing more, nothing less. But people changes and how do I determine who are still what I called to as friend? If a friend is just one of the same among the many then how does a friend affect one?

In my view, friends are our love ones. The ones that can be trusted, the ones that are your 3rd, 4th etc hands. One friend can really determine the mood that you're having of the day. Departure and arrival of friend(s) happen all the time and anywhere. Arrivals will make your day whereas departure will just change everything.

Life.

2007-09-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

The angel of death.

Life and death is something that all is familiar about in all life. I believe the news about the pair of siblings that died in the ferocious fire on Thursday dawn has been heard. Well, this news made me felt something more than other ordinary news. There are 2 reasons to it.

Firstly, the venue where it strikes is a place that was once my playground. I lived in that area for the first 10 years of my life. It was a place where there are nothing or any corner that I’m stranded to. It’s like a comfort blanket that covers me assuring that I’m safe when I’m there.

The second reason is that the siblings that died, the lady was someone that I was familiar with. My mum owns this little canteen and she works just above in the same building there. She’s a loyal customer of my mum’s and never fails to show up every morning and afternoon for breakfast and lunch. An easy going, cheerful and fine lady she is when I served her a couple of time.

Life is kind a passage of rite that we are going through to experience the feelings, the thoughts and the things we gain.

Life is the host and we are just the guest to visit.

So cherish everything and everyone.

2007-09-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

Introducing my prince frog. =D
Alright, this is a water filled frog from James' club room. But it became my pillow to sleep! Haha.

Spent like 3/4 of my holidays in School to prepare for the Xillinx event with RP on the 14 of Sep. Had a great time slacking with my wonderful companions; James and Vincent. First time wearing Rp's blazers. Had a hard time finding the smallest blazer available. But in the end still that big. Don't laugh. =p

Ok. I know what I'm going to say next is going to sound like I'm mountain tortise but, I've finally gone to the Night Safari! It's so so cool! Not dark then can't see any animals like peeps been telling me. Instead u can see the animals much better and the animal show is hilarous and exciting. So, if you've got the chance, experience it!

Busy busy busy.

2007-09-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

Life's a rush. Or at least this is what I've experience during this holidays. Packed schedules, never ending task and mountainous load of things to complete. But, at least I'm enjoying the buzzing about =)

One of the major project that I'm involved is the upcoming "big" presentation. Some MNCs that worked together with RP with one product in mind which is the FPGA. Programming the harddrive to whatever specs that we want it. Kinda neat =D

In special n secret thanks:

The little outing of joy.

2007-09-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

Lunched at the (cow) marche restaurant at vivo with my 2 pets today. Had a little girls outing and joy is being sprinkled on us through the gentle rays of sun.

Pictures paints a thousand words.

Let it do the talking then =).

2007-08-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

What is the definition of right and wrong?

Whenever we were told that we’re wrong, we’ll feel unjust and that we’re right. But then again how can we be wrong then? Often we made decisions here and there, how to choose the right ones? Or rather which are the real right ones?

Whenever there is a situation; an argument, we got hot and often babbled all the things that we shouldn’t have said. However, these words are often the closest to the real truth. Humans are all actor in someway. Everyone’s got their own secret(s).

Whenever a situation surfaced in my face; there are several reflex actions that I have. One is to run away. Two, to face it and smack it right back to where it came from. Three, is to ignore; I don’t even care. But, normally under the circumstances, we don’t usually make the choice that we were supposed to. I for one would cheat myself for a bit till when I couldn’t take it any longer. I just need closure for these decisions. But will it be too late to change?

Is there a manual to these delicate balance?

2007-08-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.

This is my first blog. Just felt the rush to do something new and ta-da. Something to occupy myself with when I’ve got too much free time. Hope there’ll to fill in as much to let the peeps know what I’m up to every now and then.

Stay tuned.

Random thoughts:
Is there really a balance within the world? This is a statement that struck me and hence the url =). Whatever that is more to you might be less to others. Just like a simple pencil case from the night market may mean nothing much and a piece of junk to you but I’m sure it’ll be a treasure to those who are less fortunate than us.

Introducing impt peeps:

*me & my dearest ah ma

*my pets!

*my no.1 dear